Everything hurts, and I'm dying...literally!

"Did you say run?"  I had the honour of being asked to share my story on our local Terry Fox page. This years #terryfoxrun is going virtual, and in an effort to draw attention and raise awareness locals battling cancer have been asked to share their stories. I think a virtual run could possibly engage even more people than an actual run, I can see more people of varying physical abilities getting involved. I do hope they have a great turn out this year. Please follow the link to read my story and others. And consider participating in this years #terryfoxrun. https://www.facebook.com/106193827382076/posts/314586076542849/

  This week my daughter lost her first 2 teeth. She was thrilled that the tooth fairy would come, I was thrilled that I could be her toothfairy. Parents are always proud when their children have a first anything, as they should be. But when you know you will likely miss out on most of those firsts it means even more to witness them. In 2018 I was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer metastasized to the bone, I was told it was terminal and that I had 3-5 years. With a newborn and a 2 yr old I was devastated at the thought of them growing up without me. The thought of all the things I would miss out on broke my heart, and still does. But, I got to be the toothfairy twice this week. I got to hear the excitement in her voice, see the joy in her eyes. It's these moments shared that I cherish.

 And just like that, we snap to our new normal! After 4 months of being home all together, last week my husband went back to work and the kids started back at daycare. I have to say, the quarantine came at a good time, I was in a dark place prior to that, in a lot of pain and not enjoying being home alone. The quarantine was good for us, good for me, it's what I needed.  When I was diagnosed with terminal metastatic bone cancer I imagined dropping everything to live out all the dreams we had for our family. You know, the things we dreamed of doing "someday", the cross Canada trips, seeing the northern lights...reality is that we can't just drop everything and live out our dreams, but quarantine was pretty close. We may not have travelled but we did get to spend ALL day, everyday together and that time was precious.  But let's be honest, it was also exhausting and now that we are back to a new normal this Mama is ready to take some time for herself.  As we all SNAP

Self love selfie I had a revelation today, I've seen this "every body is a good body" thing, and it's had me thinking about body image. For my daughter's  sake (and my son) I point out how amazing bodies are, like that mine grew two babies. But if I'm being honest I've had a lot of trouble feeling many positive things towards my body. Let's face it, this body isn't scoring high on functionality, it's not as thin or beautiful as it once was, 40 lbs later and a bunch more scars, this menopausal vessel is not what I pictured for myself at the "ripe old age" of 32! But today I realized despite all that, that my body is keeping me alive through stage 4 metastatic breast cancer, allowing me more time with my loved ones, so I think maybe it is a good body. On top of that, even with the many bone tumors, I still healed successfully from a second hip surgery.  You see that? Even the bodies that kill you prematurely are good bodies. We

When you dont have icing you use #nutella Happy Easter! I hope everyone is practicing #physical distancing, despite how hard it can be. Remember #stayathome #CANCERandCOVID Mama and baby bunny We have been in quarantine for what seems like forever 😆 And it's impossible to keep up with the messes! Those plans I had to be productive and finish little projects...not a super success. But, I read an article that said now is NOT the time to make projects of ourselves, so I'll try to go easy on myself. Maybe you want to go easy on yourself? She LOVES sprinkles! Despite being exhausted and sore I'm enjoying lock down. When I was diagnosed I imagined my family spending time together, I imagined us doing all the things we had said we would do when the kids were a bit bigger. Things like a road trip to the coast or travel to Europe, go to some iconic American location or even take a nice all inclusive trip somewhere warm.  A #bucketlist if you will. I was dis

How is social isolation treating you? I keep losing track of the day/date, and at times my kids start to get a little too crazy for my sanity, but otherwise we're doing alright. We have admittedly watched far more TV than we should (the kids are lucky if they get 30 mins maybe 4x/week usually, but that's gone right out the window!) What kind of activities have you done to keep busy? Post a pic or leave a comment down below. Here kitty, kitty, kitty! We learned that Ellie loves Perler beads! And of course we have painted, and made lots of crafts. Ellie even made some claydough bunny sculptures of our whole family. We also had some sensory fun with kinetic sand, floam, playdough, silly putty...that was mostly for Aiden, but we all enjoyed it. COVID K-9teen & Rainbow Kitty We make sure to get some outdoor time every day, play soccer, splash in puddles, attempt a last few slides in the toboggan  before all the snow melts. Everybody loves jumping in muddy puddl