Happy New Year!

Hi friends! Forgive the hiatus, recovering from surgery, preparing for the holidays, finish it up with a bunch of visiting and barely staying awake past midnight, time just flew by. Now here we are, two weeks into 2020!

So what will this year bring for the Tonkin family?

Mommy gets to take a girls trip for a dear friends birthday.

Our 10yr wedding anniversary this June (my wish has always been to stay at Château Lake Louise to celebrate...a girl can dream!)

Aiden turns 2, Ellie will be 5.

It's year 2 of a 3-5 yr diagnosis (let's hope for 5 or more)

A lot has happened since my last post, I've started a new chemo (still every 3 weeks) and a new bone medication. I have a CT at the end of the month to see if this new regimen is working. Also new is that I will now have CT's to monitor the cancer, as the bone scans didn't seem to pick up on new tumors or growing tumors (the theory is that there are just to many tumors close together, on a bone scan it just looks like one big lit up blob).
My hemiarthroplasty on the right leg is healing well, I have much less pain and I think once completely healed I'll be more mobile than before.

What will this new year bring for you? What do you hope for? Tell me in the comments. I look forward to sharing 2020 with you all!

Ellie's silhouette in front of the lit Christmas tree on xmas morning
HoHoHo!

Mommy and Ellie take a selfie early xmas morning
 Christmas morning selfie (it's what you do when you're awake before everyone else)
Ellie in a unicorn onesie sits on the couch next to aiden in a paw patrol onesie. Both have glow sticks, it's a party!
PJ Partay!





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